A CHILD'S WORLD

Being alone is not new to me.
But sometimes people just come in your life pretending to want to be a part of your life just for their own benefit.
Finally you are all alone in this world.
You are the only one who can accomplish your goals without this illusion of help that people say they have given.
So many times i wonder what am i doing wrong???
Did i live a different life,a different world, where i was taught to help people as much as i could.Or maybe i just have very unrealistic expectations.
Everything around us is so misleading whether it is finding the perfect guy who is loyal and nice or finding those quirky but  tight nit group of friends who support you.
I guess the ground reality is something quite different.
It is a dog eat dog world.
They say when you can deal with all this selfishness,untruthfulness,unhealthy competitiveness and become thick skinned only then have you entered the REAL adult world.
Maybe i prefer a child's version of the world.
It may be whimsical but if it became even a little true everything would be so much better,everyone would be a little more happier.
I guess the word child and adult really are opposites in all matters.
Its up to us to choose where we prefer to live.

I AM NOT CRAZY…I JUST WANT A DOUGHNUT

3 things I learnt early on in my life about myself  :

No.1) If you  eat my share of Tandoori chicken I will hunt you down mister so help me God..

No.2) Patience is not my virtue…

No.3) I will NOT be held responsible for my actions if you are dumb enough to call me           before 10 a.m…

NO one interrupts my sleep..

              After long long years of self recriminations and self therapy I have come to accept these things in my life as they are a part of me somehow…Never want to change for anything or anyone…have decided to enjoy my life the way I want it…

           

                    “Early to bed , Early to rise ,

               Makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise”

 I hate it when people quote such things to me…

Haven’t they noticed that nowhere in those lines is there any mention of joy, happiness??   

So ultimately get up early, go to bed early ,get a long life, retire and then and if you are still alive and kicking you Finally have this epiphany of not stopping for a minute to just do what you want , when you want…Life is strange that way…

Sometimes you can get more excitement from hitting your morning alarm snooze button than seeing the Taj Mahal…

Crazy circus all around us these days….

Gyms gyms all around you…where ever you go you see these weight loss programs , eat healthy mantra floating around…You get so caught up in it that you keep wondering if you are in shape ALL the time…it doesn’t do well for your self esteem as well…not to mention your confidence going down the drain…

So next time someone gives you a lecture about a ‘HEALTHY MIND IN A HEALTHY BODY’ ,NOTE-tell them to take a hike..

 I don’t mean that one should go  totally on a junk food high…Find a middle path…there is one for everything…

So next time someone keeps nagging you about your weight or tells you to join the gym just do what I do and say ‘I am not crazy..I just want a doughnut’

                                  FOR ALL THE FOOD LOVERS OUT THERE

                                                    HAPPY EATING

WHEN THE WORLD IS TOPSY TURVY

Confused about your identity???

Well if yes then that’s what we have in common…

I live in India...I love it here…It suits me…at least most of the time…J

I don’t stay in the typical part of India that they usually show in Bollywood…

You wouldn’t see any lush paddy fields or roads filled with vendors and street food just

about everywhere around here…

 I have to admit that traffic jammed roads are here aplenty… But you stop noticing it after a while..

Its fun to be here..comfortable…You have your family.. your friends…

But sometimes I just wonder how do I fit in here??

When I was a child I wouldn’t miss a single episode of I dream of Jeanie and Small Wonder and then in my teens all those Hollywood Romcoms that I simply adore and kept watching again and again..

After years and years of reading  Regency and Medieval romances  I can actually imagine those characters interacting and living in that time period…It is so fascinating…Its like a ritual of mine to research that time period and get the actual facts about it and not the glossed over version given in the books…though I have to admit I LOVE those glossed over parts…I am a kind of weird realistic cynical secret romantic at heart...And just as I am deeply engrossed in that world , it goes all topsy turvy on me…Reality strikes…Dealing with grumpy teachers all day….Listening to rude policemen yelling at you or other people in their cars or bikes around you cursing at you because you are going too fast or too slow on your bike or even if you are genuinely trying to wait at a signal when the lights turn yellow..Its like a crazy edition of Fast and the Furious every morning here…

ROMANCE…..well the little I talk about it the better...

It will be a rarity to find an actual blooming romance here… The young Mills and Boon type at least…Try sitting in a park with your boyfriend and you will be shooed off in a jiffy..or even at a restaurant where you cant even enjoy a single minute as half the time you are wondering if any of your relatives or family friends are there nearby who will hopefully not blab to your parents…

Now that would be bad...Really bad for you…

Even though nowdays some parents say they accept these changes but the ground reality is that parents are still not cool about these kind of relationships even if they deny it…It still is not acceptable in GOOD FAMILIES in India… …

Frustated…confused…and sometimes caught in a web I cant see myself getting out of…that’s how I feel…

Living a western life in Virtual reality and a semi Eastern one in the Real version of it…

Hmmmm….Maybe one day I will know how to straighten my topsy turvy world..

Just a No-Doer

       After finishing my second nap of the day, I thought about what to do next….                

 I could get on with my practical class work completions pending for weeks or I could start studying for my nightmarish exams (high time coming) or I could start my write ups for my assignment  due in two days or of course how could I forget that I am supposed to do my research work for my Dissertation. Mind boggling things to finish. No idea where to start….Not a clue….

                           Maybe I should plan out my strategies ,and this time really implement them. Why do I always get myself in this situation after promising  never again would I  be here like this…but here I am same place different time…Why am I so lazy??? Why do I procrastinate??? People around me plan, have a burning ambition to achieve the unachievable, have a single mindset to work hard towads their goals with a great amount of sincerity…Where as I ..I….am just sailing through life without ambition without a passion for anything….I have had all the fun I possibly could…now I guess it is time to stop being an overthinker and become a Doer rather then a No-Doer…

                                                                                                     

                         That said, I think what I will do to get out of this rut is to wirte about it here…sort of like a check off list to remind myself about the jobs that need to be done…aaaahhhhh….stress…I am remembering all those broken promises of the past…will I be able to fulfill them this time around??? An EAT,PRAY, HOPE situation arising fast for me…Will I get through it….

WANNABE INTELLECTUAL: ANCHOR THY CRAVINGS

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ANCHOR THY CRAVINGS: P

“I THINK YOU NEED TO DIET” 

I can’t even count the amount of times I have been told that… 

Eat healthy and live a long life :( 

But what are you supposed to do when you love eating… 

You enjoy it…. 

It gives you the pleasure that nothing and no one can provide you… 

I am not one of those who just stuff themselves just for the heck of it…. 

Food should be tasted…savoured… 

Every bite that you take should tell you that this is the life you always dreamed about… 

A life of fulfilment and joy… 

Eating is probably the only thing I am good at…

Having tried many many many things I can honestly tell you that is a genuine FACT… 

Some people sing...some dance…well I ummmmmm…I can EAT…A LOT…and……… …………that’s about it….. 

Its not that I don’t want to diet…I do try (My friends would disagree) but I really do… 

How can you blame me for that???

I will tell you who the real culprit in all this is…

It’s the gorgeous chocolate doughnut just waiting for you at the coffee shop….It will cast a spell on you so strong that even when you are telling yourself that this will be the last time  you taste this delicious morsel, you don’t even believe it yourself… 

The next morning is full of regrets….

and self loathing…

and lots of it mind you…

They are horrible…

And they make you too aware of broken promises of exercise, self control and diet…

Time and again I have tried and have badly failed…

sometimes because of an irresistible pizza offer you cant refuse or the burger joint that has hooked your taste buds with their tantalizing delights or the fish and chips joint that almost begs you to give it a try…How do you say nay???

Though I am saddened by my failures at self-control…

These failings are ever delightful and downright yummy:)

Maybe one day I will succeed in my plans…

But hopefully not soon : )

A ROCKY LIFE

A ROCKY LIFE !!!!!

Since last year my life has been on the rocks….

well literally :(

I have to observe them….study them…and understand them….

Not an easy task at all…

have tried it…..

unfortunately A LOT ….

If you have a passion for them then maybe the task wont be a daunting one…

but passion can only take you so far…

When I took this subject never did I think that a non mobile dead object like a rock could render my mind and brain immobile to such an extent…

phewww it can drain it….

Geology certainly ROCKS..it rocks and shakes you to the core….

I entered this field jumping with joy knowing  I would NEVER ever have to identify another bird in my life…wohooooo…

well there is an explanation behind that too L

Bird watching is difficult…believe me have tried it myself…(ACTUAL BIRDS :P)

They move ,

they fly off,

they are difficult to spot…

so basically it’s a pain…

 I am one of those people who can never spot a bird at a first glance…its like a curse…aaahhh….

Everytime someone has to show me the exact location and I almost always miss it asking “where where is it’’….

I am an EX environmental science student so to fully delve into the depths of it I tried to involve myself in various activities….(I am known to make impulsive decisions)

bird watching being one of them…

I do stuff like this..I don’t know why….

One day I will wake up and decide that I will play sports from today…

MY MOTTOin the past was-‘Aptitude doesnt matter, Attitude does’..

So after trying to play Hockey, Football for the college team and learning tennis I found out that Aptitude is totally necessary…

so my MOTTO for the future is-‘keep no mottos, they arent any good’….

So there I was in environmental science all ready to be a budding activist…

wanted to save the planet…

wanted my voice to be heard..

put my heart and soul into it…

but then they came…

the BIRDS…

they came with a vengeance…

Don’t have the patience or the energy to study them…hats off to the people who do…not everyones cup of tea L

So I thought about ROCKS….

They don’t move around,

migrate,

reproduce ,

die

and even when they do its like after 100 million years give or take…

so I figured till then they will become someone else’s problem J

Welllll….that dint happen L

They have become my problem L

Don’t know where this rocky life will take me…but wherever it does it better ROCK :D