I AM NOT CRAZY…I JUST WANT A DOUGHNUT

3 things I learnt early on in my life about myself  :

No.1) If you  eat my share of Tandoori chicken I will hunt you down mister so help me God..

No.2) Patience is not my virtue…

No.3) I will NOT be held responsible for my actions if you are dumb enough to call me           before 10 a.m…

NO one interrupts my sleep..

              After long long years of self recriminations and self therapy I have come to accept these things in my life as they are a part of me somehow…Never want to change for anything or anyone…have decided to enjoy my life the way I want it…

           

                    “Early to bed , Early to rise ,

               Makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise”

 I hate it when people quote such things to me…

Haven’t they noticed that nowhere in those lines is there any mention of joy, happiness??   

So ultimately get up early, go to bed early ,get a long life, retire and then and if you are still alive and kicking you Finally have this epiphany of not stopping for a minute to just do what you want , when you want…Life is strange that way…

Sometimes you can get more excitement from hitting your morning alarm snooze button than seeing the Taj Mahal…

Crazy circus all around us these days….

Gyms gyms all around you…where ever you go you see these weight loss programs , eat healthy mantra floating around…You get so caught up in it that you keep wondering if you are in shape ALL the time…it doesn’t do well for your self esteem as well…not to mention your confidence going down the drain…

So next time someone gives you a lecture about a ‘HEALTHY MIND IN A HEALTHY BODY’ ,NOTE-tell them to take a hike..

 I don’t mean that one should go  totally on a junk food high…Find a middle path…there is one for everything…

So next time someone keeps nagging you about your weight or tells you to join the gym just do what I do and say ‘I am not crazy..I just want a doughnut’

                                  FOR ALL THE FOOD LOVERS OUT THERE

                                                    HAPPY EATING

WHEN THE WORLD IS TOPSY TURVY

Confused about your identity???

Well if yes then that’s what we have in common…

I live in India...I love it here…It suits me…at least most of the time…J

I don’t stay in the typical part of India that they usually show in Bollywood…

You wouldn’t see any lush paddy fields or roads filled with vendors and street food just

about everywhere around here…

 I have to admit that traffic jammed roads are here aplenty… But you stop noticing it after a while..

Its fun to be here..comfortable…You have your family.. your friends…

But sometimes I just wonder how do I fit in here??

When I was a child I wouldn’t miss a single episode of I dream of Jeanie and Small Wonder and then in my teens all those Hollywood Romcoms that I simply adore and kept watching again and again..

After years and years of reading  Regency and Medieval romances  I can actually imagine those characters interacting and living in that time period…It is so fascinating…Its like a ritual of mine to research that time period and get the actual facts about it and not the glossed over version given in the books…though I have to admit I LOVE those glossed over parts…I am a kind of weird realistic cynical secret romantic at heart...And just as I am deeply engrossed in that world , it goes all topsy turvy on me…Reality strikes…Dealing with grumpy teachers all day….Listening to rude policemen yelling at you or other people in their cars or bikes around you cursing at you because you are going too fast or too slow on your bike or even if you are genuinely trying to wait at a signal when the lights turn yellow..Its like a crazy edition of Fast and the Furious every morning here…

ROMANCE…..well the little I talk about it the better...

It will be a rarity to find an actual blooming romance here… The young Mills and Boon type at least…Try sitting in a park with your boyfriend and you will be shooed off in a jiffy..or even at a restaurant where you cant even enjoy a single minute as half the time you are wondering if any of your relatives or family friends are there nearby who will hopefully not blab to your parents…

Now that would be bad...Really bad for you…

Even though nowdays some parents say they accept these changes but the ground reality is that parents are still not cool about these kind of relationships even if they deny it…It still is not acceptable in GOOD FAMILIES in India… …

Frustated…confused…and sometimes caught in a web I cant see myself getting out of…that’s how I feel…

Living a western life in Virtual reality and a semi Eastern one in the Real version of it…

Hmmmm….Maybe one day I will know how to straighten my topsy turvy world..

Just a No-Doer

       After finishing my second nap of the day, I thought about what to do next….                

 I could get on with my practical class work completions pending for weeks or I could start studying for my nightmarish exams (high time coming) or I could start my write ups for my assignment  due in two days or of course how could I forget that I am supposed to do my research work for my Dissertation. Mind boggling things to finish. No idea where to start….Not a clue….

                           Maybe I should plan out my strategies ,and this time really implement them. Why do I always get myself in this situation after promising  never again would I  be here like this…but here I am same place different time…Why am I so lazy??? Why do I procrastinate??? People around me plan, have a burning ambition to achieve the unachievable, have a single mindset to work hard towads their goals with a great amount of sincerity…Where as I ..I….am just sailing through life without ambition without a passion for anything….I have had all the fun I possibly could…now I guess it is time to stop being an overthinker and become a Doer rather then a No-Doer…

                                                                                                     

                         That said, I think what I will do to get out of this rut is to wirte about it here…sort of like a check off list to remind myself about the jobs that need to be done…aaaahhhhh….stress…I am remembering all those broken promises of the past…will I be able to fulfill them this time around??? An EAT,PRAY, HOPE situation arising fast for me…Will I get through it….